Friday, January 29, 2016
Arrogant
But one challenge of growing up comes to me sooner than I thought.
Today i was called 'Arrogant'. A word i have never associated myself with ever nor do I ever thought will be called as. But, why does it hurt so much. It must be true, then why does all this denial comments keep on running in my head. When you think you are always right, you must be wrong. you might be arrogant.
I have always seen myself as the person that would step down to the persons level to understand a situation. I have my eruptions, and this will usually follow with an apology. Not that the apology corrects my previous undesired act, but i cannot turn the time could I?. Its the least i could do. I do not believe in buying gifts, i just don't. Just honest apology.
However, me saying this does sound arrogant does it?. No humble person will say they are nice. I guess I am arrogant. I cant put in any details of why i am called so. Generally, I explained myself in such a way that i might have hurt the other person. I do not mean to. But I did. And for this i am called the word.
Thus, its time for me to step back and think this through. And change to be the better me.. a humbler me.
Cimee
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Reasons? Excuse?
Isn't that the cutest? -courtesy of Kak Mardiah
Monday, August 10, 2009
The Good Widow i fall in love with.....
I would reserve beaches and the sea as holiday destinations and rather have the morning mist, chirpings of birds and crickets welcoming me every start of the day....
And when the picture of the multi-award winning Enderong house in an architectures book not too long ago caught my eye, i immediately decided to have Janda Baik or more specifically TanaRimba Janda Baik my dream home location..... well, a guy is allowed to dream at least rite??.....:)
While 'busy' preparing for my psychiatry end of 2-weeks intro MCQ exam, i suddenly remembered that not too long dream...and decided to surf the internet for it...i found the site of TanaRimba and many lots are yet to be sold...my guess is...millions of ringgits...there is also this rule that stated that once a piece of land is bought, a house must be built in three years time and that the land size of the house must not exceed one fifth of the land bought...to me that is just perfect...a way for the developer to maintain the jungle look...
Once i was done with my exam, my mom came to Kuantan to pick me and the teak furnitures i bought for the house... Told my mom of the place and persuaded her to go and explore it together...we reached TanaRimba quite late and the office had just closed but the guards seeing my enthusiatic face let us through and what i saw made me love the place even more...the fresh air..untouched nature...the lanscape...just sirene... there are many houses still in the process of construction..i might pay this place a visit again once i'm done with MBBS to keep the fire burning...
They also have this amazing 'logs-inspired' community hall next to a lake that i simply and instantly picture my wedding taking place... haha... again.. one can dream rite.... and when we left the place..it took us 20 minutes to reach KL!!! How awesome is that....Below are some of the pictures captured (taken with my iphone and its nearly 7 pm so the pics not that nice...sorry)....
Another house i envy
My mom surveying my future wedding place...hehe
website: www.tanarimba.com.my
Monday, August 3, 2009
The Reading Culture
Then he continued reading each essay's author and their marks with no specific order...
'Hielmi Syaiful-Nizam bin Shamsuddin...81!'
I was speechless...well...everyone was...i am the person who was in grade B english class from form 1 till 2 and was promoted to grade A in form 3 after my mom came to school demanding for it because i managed to get an A eventhough its a borderline during my form 2 final exam... to even get pass 70 is a dream for me for an english essay especially marked by En Zahir....
'so Hielmi, where was this writing skills all this while? what's changed? what did you do? ' after passing out all the other papers...
suddenly some of my classmates said together...
'Its the Lord of the Rings...' and one continued 'He's been reading it since it came out'
and En Zahir replied with a big grin... 'Then i guess you all should get one or borrow from him' and left the room...
It might just be a trial exam but that was when i begin to understand the reason for my dad's actions and why 'Iqra!' was chosen to be the first.....
Sunday, July 19, 2009
First Diving Experience
I met all the other divers during breakfast at a kopitiam in Dungun. Icebreaking starts there and it is during this time i met my buddy, Alfian. Divers have a buddy system in which none can go diving alone. Since my dad can't come i will have a complete stranger to be my buddy. Also known as Pian, he is part of the company 9bio. Along with him is the intelligent biologist Murni, the hyper lawyer Laura, the petite Adlin and dad pakcik Zul, Kak Izam and hubby Anuar and last but not least the lovely couple Meor and Munira. the 10 of us form the Open Water Course students during this trip.
Our OWC group... L2R: me, pian, lin, nuar, munira, meor
The one hour ride to the island is hell boring but halfway through while playing with my iphone, the boatman called me and showed some distant ripples and said 'sharks'. I was like'huh?' my first thought is that the boatman must be mistaken, it could be dolphins or jacketfish but as we go nearer i see multiple fins circling the ripples, some leaps and as i went to the bow of the boat i've got to agree with the boatman. Then i saw three fins from the side of the boats speeding towards the ripples and join the feast. They are so fast the fins splits the water. Awesome sight to behold.
After arriving, few forms were filled, briefing by Robin, the caretaker of the dive centre, and by our instructors. There werre 4 instructors present, Lesly, Soo, Hari and Roland. We stayed in a very basic dorm as most of the time was spent either in the sea or by the beach. The one taking care of my group of 6 was Lesly.
So we head over to the place pumped with determination and upon descending i saw multiple jellyfishes around. I know their sting cells can be nasty and quickly cover my hands with my long sleeve rash guard, keeping an eye on the surrounding and kept my distances from those jellyfishes. After 5 metres down i realized i can't see the bottom, panicked i look at the depth gauge and make sure i dont exceed depth for us Open Water Diver which is 18 metres. the visiblity here is also low since its already evening. Our only guide to keep orientated is to look at the corals on the wall. We followed Lesly a good 20 minutes just observing the walls filled with corals and fishes... then the visibility reduced as i noticed the water is filled with planktons... some actually stung me..bugger!.. suddenly Lesly gave an instruction to stay put anchored to any reacheable boulder corals. After two minutes or so the sound of Lesly's tank clanked repeatedly by his metal rod took us all by surprise... then he pointed up and that was when i witnessed the much talk about gentle giant.... elegance!! awesomenes!!... i cant take my eyes of it and it leaves us after around 10 seconds... i cant describe the feeling... see the video in my facebook account for yourself... something so beautiful could only be the works of someone with Power, unsurmountable power.
The majestic creature...(courtesy of Paul, TIBR and En Izham, 9Bio)
We also manage to see manta twice during out last dive. The first time we saw it from a distant.... all i manage to see is its shiloutte..then it suddenly shoots off...after around ten minutes while observing the other fishes the manta came back swimming right below me. The way it flaps its fins is so mesmerizing...we encounter the endangered green turtle three times!!! these sea creatures are so carefree i really envy them... i was really amazed with the trust they give to us humans... giving us the opportunity to come near... a trust we humans sometimes take for granted..
Manta!..... (courtesy of En. Izham, 9Bio)
Some of the other funderwater crwatures i saw were blue spotted fantail stingray, anglefishes, batfishes, butterfly fishes, bumphead parrotfish and other parrotfishes, fire red grouper, orange margined triggerfish, schools of blue lined snappers, sea cucumbers of various species, giant clams, nudibranches, chrismas tree worms, tube worms and many more.
The batfish lingers around us for so long..sure its confused thinking 'what the hell is these creatures swimming so badly in the water?'
One of the best experience would be when we actually drift dive... we took advantage of the currents to move and energy is only needed to maintain balance... so cool!!!
We were really lucky and this trip will surely not be my last dive...the trip was completed with a group picture and a stop at 2 kopitiams...haha...one in dungun and another is at the famous Hai Peng in Kemaman...
Kopitiam in Dungun
Its the whole group!!!
Friday, July 3, 2009
Departures
His journey starts off rocky and gradually the job grew on him...but the perception of others gave him a hard time especially that of his wife...an event changes all that and he got the respect he deserve. The story of his father that ran away from home when he was small only to be reunited by his passing is a scene that left me shedding tears full of deep emotion (and i'm well proud of it!).