Arrogant

I am now 2 days from turning thirty and actually looking forward to it. Not the '13 going 30' kinda way, but mostly growing up.I have done some pretty crazy stuff in my twenties. I have everyone for the amazing journey. My twenties was awesome to say the least.

But one challenge of growing up comes to me sooner than I thought.

Today i was called 'Arrogant'. A word i have never associated myself with ever nor do I ever thought will be called as.  But, why does it hurt so much. It must be true, then why does all this denial comments keep on running in my head. When you think you are always right, you must be wrong. you might be arrogant.

I have always seen myself as the person that would step down to the persons level to understand a situation. I have my eruptions, and this will usually follow with an apology. Not that the apology corrects my previous undesired act, but i cannot turn the time could I?. Its the least i could do. I do not believe in buying gifts, i just don't. Just honest apology.

However, me saying this does sound arrogant does it?. No humble person will say they are nice. I guess I am arrogant.  I cant put in any details of why i am called so. Generally, I explained myself in such a way that i might have hurt the other person. I do not mean to. But I did. And for this i am called the word.

Thus, its time for me to step back and think this through. And change to be the better me.. a humbler me.

Cimee

Reasons? Excuse?

When i started the blog... i've aimed to at least put in a post every 2 weeks... the sole purpose is just to keep me writing and thats the reason of me not promoting this blog... not at all... i dun put a password coz i dun mind people reading but at the same time i just want to write and eventhough the blog does sound like i'm trying to inform the world stuff its just how i want to write.. a first person view kind of writing... this blog may not be as creative as some of those by the many talented bloggers but at least sufficient for me to.... just write... or type in this case. Its totally different than doing case write ups(duhh??!) and i just want a channel to let it go... but somehow along the way i found it to be somesort of a burden(not that i have fans.. just the obligation i made to myself.. stupid huh? having oneself burden himself)... with the pack schedule i have... i found its hard to find inspirations to write...

Life has been great... its been full of activities... since my last post i could have written bout my Raya, Christmas with my good frens(hella nite), my orthopaedics and CHFM postings, rock climbing(yes... i am now a rock climber... woohoo for me!) and my recent trip to Phuket... when i think bout it i'm always infront of the computer... sumtimes wasting time at my facebook profile waiting for new notifications or checking friends updates however i never thought of actually putting an entry... i'm 'inspirationless'?... nah... i'm just lazy!!!!

Isn't that the cutest? -courtesy of Kak Mardiah